Thursday, August 21, 2014

... and that's the thing you constantly run into, that you have to really admit to yourself, that life is unsatisfactory.   You can try to master it, but that's never going to work.  You have to shift your paradigm.  Accept.  Renounce the vanities.  Realize, in a way, that you are a loser, need not expect anything great out of life.  And then it dawns on you that everyone else is in the same boat, just, as children, not aware of it.  Then, in a sort of sadness, you can become a human being, naked, vulnerable, aware of the world around you.   Is there a problem then?  As if you must ask yourself, 'well, now what?'?  I'm not sure I know.   Go and rest in nature, when your labors are done for a week?  Do laundry?  What else is there but maintenance...  It would all seem to be rather sad, a world of lonesome people who have a need to express their own frailty, a bit of how they personally might cope, like doing yoga to prevent some of the decaying that comes with time.

We never mean to hurt other people, but hurt them we do, whenever we enter into a relationship, because most often a relationship, popularly conceived, is built on the concept of happiness.  Which is ultimately a strain, something unnatural, unsustainable.

I suppose we're better off just having a relationship with nature, to go for walks and hikes and bike rides, to do yoga outdoors, to meditate by a  stream or under a tree or on a rock.  To free our minds of thoughts, to become the light of consciousness, clear, blending with the light around us, porous, letting being simply happen, not trying to impose any will or taste but for that which we find natural, simple, sustaining, comfortable.

Then it occurs to us that there's really nothing we should really be doing, no job that really needs doing all that much, even as others might protest too loudly the need.

It might all seem to suck, doesn't it sometimes?  What job should we be doing?  What should we do to earn our keep?  Why do we all lie to each other?  Go read a good book;  try and learn something.  That's how you learn, after all, by taking the time to read something.   Fancy education specialists make it complicated, but it's all quite simple.  Read.  Watch an educational film.  Explore some old topic that seems in your world to have stood the test of time.  You're never going to be able to convince other people against their will.   The Buddha knew this, and so he preached calm.

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